Sunday, February 1, 2015

One more hint while waiting for PA

Yesterday was my mom and dad's 62nd anniversary! To celebrate, I picked up breakfast on my way home from work along with a beautiful bouquet of flowers. In the afternoon they attended a coral event at the local opera house. Today they plan to catch dinner and a movie!

I realize that I am beyond blessed to have both my parents at this stage of my life! I love them so much!

It seems I read that it could take 2 to 4 weeks for PA. I was hoping that it would come before the Chinese New Year celebration but at this point, I'm not sure. 
All in God's timing!

I can hardly believe that we are embarking on this journey again. I honestly thought I was finished and here I am deeply desiring not one but two girls. The second girl would be the perfect fit for our family and I truly pray that God will open the door for her to join us.

I'm running out of hints for the beautiful girl that I hope to receive PA on.

  • Lifeline Waiting Children's list
  • Girl
  • Age 12-13
  • Hair - Dark brown/black
  • Eyes - Brown
  • Special Need - yes
  • Foster family - yes
Since I'm running out of vague hints, I guess you will just have to wait until PA! 

Bonding is coming along, especially for one of my girls. It is as if we have turned a corner and she had been more open with the affection and love. 

Now, the most exciting news, Mackinley prayed and ask Jesus into her heart. She is a diligent Bible student. What a sweet blessing to know that she has taken this important step in her faith walk.

Until next time . . .

Friday, January 30, 2015

More adoption hints!

I was told that my hint yesterday wasn't a good one! Okay, how do you like this: 

  • Lifeline Waiting Children's list
  • Girl
  • Age 12-13
  • Hair - Dark brown/black
  • Eyes - Brown
  • Special Need - yes
Does that help? The good news, I believe my LOI will be submitted today! That means the CCCWA should get it Monday. I'm not sure how long after that before I hear from them.

Pray request other than for the finances. My heart has fallen for another child that doesn't have a file at this time. She would be the perfect caboose to our family, the problem, my agency doesn't feel that I am able to care for six children with my current work schedule. I understand their position, yet they don't understand my heart, God's calling and the wonderful girls here at home. I would not ask for this chid if I did not feel God's leading for her or the fact that I know that no one would suffer due to the additional children in the family. Would you join me in believing that God would let them see His plan for my family. Charts, graphs, and opinions of what a perfect situation looks like is not always the right way, we are definitely one of those think outside of the box families. We are guided and directed by God's plan for us and his leading!

More to come as I hear from my agency, the LOI response from the CCCWA and all that God has in store for us.

Trusting God . . .

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Next hint

My two days of smart training are over! It was a nice change from my regular routine, I loved the educational environment. I was part of a great group of ladies in the simulation lab where we practiced our new communications skills. 

Today, I received a copy of my Alabama background check and guess what? I have no criminal history! One more piece of the puzzle required for preparing my dossier! 

Tomorrow, I'm heading to the doctor's office to get my blood work drawn for my physical. She wanted fasting so I'm leaving work long enough to run over for them to draw what they need.

Inch by inch things are moving forward. I need to call my social worker to see what else I need to be working on! I put it all on hold when we received the devastating news that China was refusing to give Addison a file for adoption.

Tonight's dinner is stir-fry chicken and veggies with a side salad, fresh fruit will be their dessert. The girls are looking forward to this! I might throw in some soup before hand just to help fill them up! I've had more than one person tell me that the girls eat far more than their teenage sons! One gallon of soup last for one meal and I'm lucky to get a bowl! I'm not complaining, just amazed that they can pack so much away without gaining weight! If only I hand inherited those type of genes!

Yes, we are adopting, from Lifeline the next hint, the child we are adopting is a girl!

Until next time . . .

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Just another Monday!

Yesterday, the girls and I headed to the grocery store! We had two carts filled to the top! We went prepared with our list from what we needed for the next two weeks menu's! Don't be shocked I do occasionally plan ahead! We may have added a few extra items that the girls wanted as we went along!

Publix opened a register for us and one of the clerks unloaded our carts while two more bagged all our items! I just love this store! My one regret is I forgot my camera as we hand plenty of photo opportunities! 

The girls seemed to notice for the first time that we were getting a lot of stares! I don't know if it was the middle aged woman with four beautiful daughters or the two huge carts filled with food or maybe it was both!

I'll have to go back next week for more milk and fruit as they don't seem to last very long around here! I'm sure most of you can relate!

The next two days I will be in "SMART" training at work! From what I've been told it is very boring, the good news another co-worker is attending this training and I will not have to sit alone!

For the record, I am still praying that Addison's file will open up. The girls have told her that China has said no due to the fact that she has a father. I don't understand why God would lead me to this child and then close the door. I guess it will be one of those untold mysteries that I will learn more about once in heaven.

Now that I am moving forward, I need to fundraise again. I will have another agency payment to make and those costly fingerprint for the 1-800a are just around the corner. If you have any good ideas that work please let me know. 

I also need to find out how to get any future donations in a tax deductible status. Any help and advice is most welcomed!

The LOI requirements seemed to be more than they were the first two times I adopted! Anyway, slowly chipping away at it!

A hint about the child we are looking to adopt - this child is on the Lifeline waiting list. 

Until next time . . .

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Walking the road to adoption

To know Jesus and to make him known! 

This has been a difficult season! Losing a child that you wanted so desperately is hard and I thank each of you that shared your experiences with me. To see you on the other side living victoriously speaks highly of the love and healing that comes from trusting God to lead and guide your life.

Honestly, adoption has been hard of me financially, while so many have helped and much of my expenses were covered by so many generous donations, there are still retirement account loans, and some credit cards holding balances. (Just being honest)!

I am not complaining as I have four wonderful treasures that know Jesus, have a forever family and are getting an education that might not have been possible in their homeland.

This is where the battle within begins, do I adopt again or do I say no.
  • There are those that say, your hands are full, enough is enough
  • What about the girls at home, there are so many things you can't afford to do (dance, music, etc.)
  • Vicky, you are not getting any younger and you work so hard
  • You have four wonderful girls why would you want to bring another child home?
I can't help but think about those things and the following . . .
  • What if I don't adopt and no one else wants this child?
  • What will happen to her? 
  • Will she ever know the love of God? 
  • Have a family? 
  • Get an education?
  • Be loved and treasured?
I have wrestled with all these things, praying for clarity, filling out LOI paperwork one minute and filled with doubt the next. Double minded not a good thing!

A double minded man is unstable in all his ways. James 1:8

Then tonight as I was reading an email from another adoptive mama, God spoke to my heart and clearly I am to submit my LOI for this treasure.

Her life is far more important than music, dance or art lessons, me being tired, she is a beloved daughter of the King and he desires for her to know him and be love by a family, not just any family, my family!

My job is to walk in obedience and to love and trust God to work out all the details! Yes, he moved my heart for this child and I cannot wait to tell her how God lead me to her.

More to come about this waiting treasure as I am able to share . . .

Sunday, January 11, 2015

The Unsent Letter!

Dear _ _ _ _ _,

I respect you as a board that works hard to approve adoptions for the many orphans needing homes/families in your homeland. I have come to love your land, and your children. I have four of your beautiful treasures!

It is an honor to raise these wonderful girls as my own. Each is gifted, talented and dearly loved! Thank you for trusting me to love these girls.

Recently the file of a young girl reached your office, the file of a child near aging out that has lived in an orphanage for the majority of her life. It is my understanding she has a father whom is unable to care for her.

I admire this father for wanting the best for his child by sending her to a place where she would be clothed, fed, and educated. Isn't that what we all want for our children, the best? There is no shame in not being able to provide for a child, it certainly takes a man of strong character to give up so much for his precious treasure.

I would love to provide a home and future for this waiting girl. All my treasures are being taught to honor their birth parents for the life that they gave them. This treasure would have had the added advantage of continuing her relationship with her father via QQ, where he could have received updates and photos of his beloved child. It is my understanding that he agreed freely to allow his child to be adopted.

What makes this treasure so unique and special to me is the fact that she is an orphanage sister to one of my girls. Two girls that share a bond beyond being birthed to the same parents. They are friends and like each other. Can you imagine anything better than to be placed with a family where you already know one of your siblings?

I certainly understand never removing a child from her home when the family is able to provide. I know all too well that things happen in life that make caring for a child a difficult challenge for some families despite their best efforts. There is no shame in this as it happens everywhere.

The precious treasure that I would love to call my own wants to be adopted and tells my daughter to hurry to come for her. She wants us as her family and we want her. My heart and home are ready for this wonderful child.

My heart and the hearts of my girls at home are deeply sadden that this child's file, due to reasons only known to you, will not be processed. We feel that we have lost a daughter, sister and friend.

I know that you will never see this letter yet if feels somewhat better to write expressing my grief for this huge loss. Each of your children are dear treasures! I love this child and desire her to be my own via the wonderful gift of adoption. Please reconsider allowing this child's file to be approved for adoption, she is loved and cherished by this waiting family.

Sincerely submitted,

A mom with a hurting heart

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Closed door!

It is with a heavy heart that I come to share about my unspoken prayer request. Thank you for praying and believing with us.

There was a problem with Addison's file in China. It seems she has a biological father. This fact makes her ineligible for adoption, especially when he has not given up his rights as a parent, even though she has lived in the orphanage for years.

What makes this hard is knowing that she wanted to come and told my girls each time they talked on QQ to hurry. Please keep Addison in your prayers as I am not sure what she will be told on the China side of things. They have shared with Addison that China told us, no. She will never know how much we love and care for her.

I'm not sure where we will go from here. Just taking it slow to see where God leads. We had already opened our hearts and made so many preparations for this little treasure that it hurts knowing she will not be ours. 

Again, please pray that God will protect Addison and make himself known to her in a land where knowing Christ as Lord and Savior often comes at a great cost. She will forever hold a piece of my heart.

I'm not sure why allowed this door to be closed but He is God and I will trust him.

Friday, January 2, 2015

My Family

 Gavin Michael, 11, and their dog, Rose! 

Matthew is the oldest and my only son. He, Gavin and Rose live with me, long story and Matthew's to tell. Matthew has recently changed jobs or I should say, added another job to his already busy schedule! He is a big help being here with the girls when I cannot be due to work. He and Kendall share a special bond, I think it is because she will clean his bathroom (for pay)! When the girls first came they were intimidated by Matthew's size! Kendall has figured out he's really just a big teddy bear!

Gavin is Matthew's only son, and my first grandchild! He is a chip off the ole block! He's growing up so fast! He and the girls have a love/hate relationship! He does love going and doing things with us! He recently went with the girls and me on our trip to the zoo.

My daughter, Jordan Elizabeth and her daughter, Kayte Elizabeth, 15 months!

Jordan is a great little mama, a good wife and loving daughter. I am blessed to call her mine! I admire the fact that Jordan has faced adversity with strength and character! If I could change one thing, I would live closer so that I could see her and her sweet babies more often! 

Kayte was named after a friend of Jordan's that died way to young! I thought it was sweet of Jordan and her husband, Jimmy to remember and honor their friend in such a touching manner. I had the pleasure to spend time with this little darling and her brother at Christmas and let me say, Kayte goes nonstop! I admire Jordan for keeping up with her! She must take after her daddy!

My son-in-law, Jimmy

Jimmy is a great husband and father! I admire the fact that Jimmy never meets a stranger and can talk to anyone, a wonderful quality! He is good for Jordan and they really make a great team/couple!

Jackson James, 4, Jordan and Jimmy's first born!

While here at Christmas, Jackson suddenly stopped playing and ran into my arms and gave me the sweetest kiss. A moment I will treasure forever! I love my time with this little fellow! Oh, he is all boy, he loves trains, cars, and dinosaurs! 

Journey Caroline, 13
Adopted May 2012 at age 11

Here she is modeling Addison's apron! Journey is strong in spirit and a leader! As you can see from this photo, she loves to have fun! She grabbed my new oven mitts to pose with! I'll never forget the night I received Journey's file and watching her dance in the director's office! My heart was captivated and the rest is history! Let me say, Journey knows how to delegate, I have to keep my eye on her or she would have all her sisters doing her chores!

Kendall Katherine, 15
Adopted May 2012 at ate 12

This photo speaks volumes about Kendall. She loves babies, puppies and is the hardest worker I know! Kendall came from a hard beginning but let me tell you this child is smart! She received gift cards for Christmas and she wanted me to buy the cards from her so that she could put the money in her savings account. I cannot begin to tell you how far she has come! To know Kendall is to love her!

Mackinley Alexandra, 15
Adopted September 2013 at age 13

Mackinley and my mom share the same birthday. Mackinley's birth mom left a note giving her a piece of her past, what a wonderful treasure for my girl. Mackinley is the quietest and most reserved in the group. She has a fun loving side that she lets peek out once in a while! I can see Mackinley as an educator at some point in the future. Mackinley grieved the hardest of all the girls her first year here.

Eden Victoria, 15
Adopted September 2013, 
5 days before her 14th birthday

I remember the exact moment I fell in love with Eden. Her photo was right under Mackinley's on Annie's Wonderful Waiting Kids! I was showing my sister Eden's photo and said something to her and my heart quickened and I teared up, I knew then that I could not rest until she was mine.

Eden is very self-conscious about her cleft and I hate that! She is beautiful on the outside as well as the in! I pray that as time goes by she will accept that fact that beauty goes far beyond the surface level and when you calculate her inner shine she is beyond gorgeous! Oh, Eden loves to talk and I love that about her.

Eden and Mackinley have been mine since Sept, 2013 about 15 months. They both came from foster families and they were dearly loved by their foster families. This transition has been a progress. Lots of tears for one and not quite as many for the other. I comforted when allowed but sometimes I just had to let them cry! Their personalities played a huge part in how they have transitioned!

Journey and Kendall have been home since May, 2012. Kendall loves being in the US, loves me and tells me all the time that she is so happy having a mother. Journey is more reserved and has written her feeling in a journal a couple of times that allows me to glimpse into her heart. Kendall was from a very poor orphanage while Journey was from one that was very well funded!

The girls' beginnings have made a difference in how they have bonded to me and to their sisters. I will say this, from my experience the girls did better coming home with a sibling. They never knew the isolation of not being able to communicate with at least someone in the house. They have all said it was easier having someone to come home with.

I know my experience seems to be the exception rather than the norm! I can only say, thank you Lord! I am beyond grateful for the opportunity to love and care for these girls that had little hope of a future as orphans. 

I am not trying to paint an unrealistic picture of older child adoption but I wanted to share that not every older child adoption is off the charts with real life hard issues! Now, not every day is easy and I can't tell you the times I've gone to my room and cried and prayed for my girls.

You have to go into each adoption expecting the very worse and praying for the best. Your child's history makes a huge difference in what you will face. Study that file, ask questions, trust what your China contacts tell you about the child. Most of all trust God to lead you to the right child for your family and he will give you the strength to take each day, hour, and minute as it comes.

Still trusting and believing God for mountains to be removed on behalf of my girls! Nothing is impossible for Him!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Happy New Year!


This morning on FB I was reminded of this verse and I can't explain how this simple truth, that I've known for years, spoke to my heart, soul, and mind!

God's character does not change! I am renewed in my spirit to study once again HIS character and to really get to know HIM on a more intimate level! 

The new year begins with many challenges and opportunities for God's character to be honored, relied on, and praised. 

My heart weeps when I think of the road block that has surfaced in Addison's adoption. I have not lost hope but clearly this is a situation/door that only God can open. 

I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted. Job 42:2

My sweet friend shared this verse with me today and oh my, is it ever a promise to stand on in this situation!

Yes, God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and no plan of his can be thwarted!

What a blessed assurance!  Yes, I am expecting something so big from God . . .

Wednesday, December 31, 2014


Have you ever been on the path of life and as your rounded the curve without warning you found yourself at the base of a mountain too high to climb and too wide to go around? The circumstances just seem impossible, yet you know this is the path that God led you down. 

This is where I am finding myself on this particular adoption journey. While I am not at liberty to share the details at this time I can definitely share that there is a mountain! 

The Good NEWS is that GOD is in control and he knew this mountain would be here long before he placed this particular adoption on my heart. God's ways are higher than mine, no matter the outcome I will love and trust him. Do not take that statement as one of defeat, no it is my deceleration that God is God and I will trust him no matter what happens.

Our God is in the mountain moving business and nothing and I mean nothing is impossible for him. Please join me in trusting and believing that God will make a way! 

My sweet Addison wants a family and we want to be her family, this child matters not only to me but to our heavenly father!

I cannot nor will I answer any questions at this time other than to say all will be revealed when I am able to share.

Trusting, believing that nothing is impossible for my God, yes I am expecting something so big from God!

Monday, December 29, 2014

Adoption Journey

Those of you that have traveled the road to adoption know first hand about the ups and downs experienced on the path that leads to adding one more treasure to your home.

We are making progress but I marked on my finger print form that I had been convicted of a crime and then didn't fill out the information. Well, that came back and I have to resend it today. I called them on Wednesday of last week and spoke to someone that I didn't have a lot of confidence in and then tried again on Friday and guess what? They were closed! Oh, and for the record, I misread the question and I have never been convicted of a crime, not even a speeding ticket (not that I haven't deserved one from time to time)!

Yesterday, my wonderful China coordinator from Lifeline called me and again, she was busy working on her vacation! Her heart is amazing and I know that she truly loves her China families and the kiddos she works tirelessly to find homes for. While I am not at liberty to share about this conversation at this time, I ask that you would bathe this situation in prayer.

God is bigger than any mountain, and he loves orphans and he loves me. While I pray and rest in Him, for answers I know that HIS WAYS are higher than mine. This brings me a peace as I wait for HIM to show up and no matter the outcome, I will honor him!

Walking the road to adoption is a journey filled with many ups and downs yet I am not alone, my Father goes before me and he is there each and every step of the way. I trust him in the midst of the storms, I know that he clams the storm and he makes a way when there seems to be no way. I speak life to this situation, I know God is in control. He can open doors that no man can shut and close doors no man can open. Yes, my God is that big and I trust him.

I will share the details once all is known! In the interim will you join me in trusting and believing that God has this and that he will be honored and glorified no matter the outcome!

I trust you, Jesus!

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Thanking God for you and your gifts of love!

I have so many things to share about how God is blessing us! Each and every gift is appreciated and welcomed! Thank you for coming along side us to help bring our sweet Addison home!

I would like to introduce you to Ellie and Allie!

These sweet treasures are orphanage sisters to Journey and our waiting Addison! I met these sweet girls when I adopted Journey!

Ellie and Allie told their mother that they wanted to help me bring Addison home. They took money out of their savings and sent $300.00! One of the girls had been saving for over a year to buy herself an iPod! Talk about sacrifice! These girls know what it is like to live without a family and they have given their all to help their orphanage sister find her family!

Next, I would like to tell you about Sharon, she blessed Addison with clothes! Lots and lots of beautiful clothes! Can you imagine that God loves Addison enough that he has already provided clothes for her to wear!


This top and leggings were my favorite! I can just see Addison wearing this as she returns to visit her friends at the orphanage.

Eden is holding up the dress that all the girl's loved at first site! I think it was the sparkly belt that got their attention!

I'm sure it comes as no surprise to see Kendall holding up this Hello Kitty shirt!

Mackinley chose this beautiful little skater dress to hold up for a photo!

Journey had the camera! The girls loved seeing all these clothes. I asked if they wanted to try on their favorite dress and they all at once said,"no"! These were Addison's and they wanted her to be first to try them on!  Mackinley wanted to go ahead and put them in the suitcase!

Allie and Ellie were not the only children to give, Katelyn and Kylee also donated some of their own money, along with their mother. Kylee is an orphanage sister to Journey, Allie, and Ellie! Kylee was adopted just a few months before Journey and Allie. It touches my heart to see these young ladies give so much of themselves.

Sandy's friends and family have also donated after she shared our adoption story. A huge thanks to her and those that gave so generously. Obviously, I cannot feature each and every gift, although each person and their sacrificial gift plays an important part of helping to bring Addison home.

Kristin donated her earnings from my Thirty-one party and many of you purchased your Christmas gifts via this event to help bring Addison home. Thank you, Kristin and thank you to those that supported this event.

I have a special blog follower from Australia that has donated each time I have adopted. Not one time but multiple times. I thank you and I pray that God blesses you too!

Just when I'm about ready to give up God steps in via you and blesses us and encourages me to keep my eyes of the prize of his calling! 

Feeling thankful and blessed! Thank you!

Monday, December 15, 2014

Progress and it is beginning to look like Christmas!

To those that have given to help bring Addison home, thank you! I am humbled by your generosity and love. 

Thursday, Matthew and I went to get our fingerprints at the local sheriff's department. The officer/clerk helping us was friendly, kind and hated having her photo taken as much as me, yet she consented! I wanted this remembrance to share with Addison. 

While there we had to wait in the hall between my prints and Matthew's for them to print a young man in handcuffs! He was being escorted by two guards so we gladly stepped out for them to process him!

If you have followed me through the years you know I have a knack for tripping and falling! Yep, it happened again as we stepped out from the Sheriff's Office. I'm not sure what happened other than my foot seem to get stuck and down I went. Matthew helped me up and one of the officers inside came out to see if I was okay. If you are the agency reading this, please disregard this, I really am fit as a parent despite my tendency to be not so graceful! I have a small abrasion on my elbow and it is rather bruised! 

The good news, the finger prints cards will be delivered this morning! Also being delivered today is a huge stack of paperwork for the agency! Wednesday, we will be visited again by my social worker for our 2nd home study visit! Slowly but surely things are happening!

Guess what? This week a package is being delivered to our home with clothes for Addison! A sweet blog follower wanted to bless our girl and us and I beyond excited to see what she selected! I will certainly be sharing on a future blog post so stay tuned! Isn't God good?

We have a "Charlie Brown" tree this year. Our old tree  died last year and I wanted something small and cheap for this small space in the living room! We scaled back with the decorating this year too! It is kind of nice and the girls are happy. 

The wood block Nativity on the mantle was made by my parents years ago. It holds a special place in my heart and this year I featured it on the mantle. Yes, that is the elf sitting next to the baby Jesus. He stayed there many days as I kept forgetting to move him! When asked, I told the girls that he just wanted to love Jesus a little longer! Next year there will be one more stocking to hang! Yeah!

I think this will be our last week of school for this year. I haven't shared this with the girls. They will be surprised when I tell them! They have worked hard this first semester and I'm so proud of them!

Until next time . . . God is faithful!

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Why adopt again?

Today, I am thankful for heat! Night before last we were without and it was rather nippy in here! One of the advantages of living in the South, while cold it wasn't freezing! 

At an age when my peers are retiring or semi-retiring, I am adding to my family! The world would tell me, you are too old, you have done enough, let someone else do the adopting, you don't have the money (that one is true), and four is enough and to some four is too many! Why they ask?

Why? I'll tell you why! When God opens your eyes to the needs of the orphan you can never pretend that it doesn't exist. You see, I have gotten to know four wonderful girls that would not have had a chance in this world had they not be adopted.

Their education would have stopped, they would be forced out of their orphanages onto the streets if there were no positions for them or be condemned to live in an institution the rest of their lives. 

Can you imagine attempting to make your way in the world without training or an education in a place that considered you bad luck because you were an orphan? What about the predators that lurk about to take advantage of these innocent young girls?

Everyday girls all across China age out and it breaks my heart that they will never know the love of a family! The love of Jesus and what HE did for them. I believe that as I age, I am not to rest back and let someone else do the work, no God isn't through with me. His plan for my life is to open my home to these beautiful girls. That is why I adopt and feel clearly that God has called me to bring one more treasure home from China.

Adoption is expensive! Is it worth it, yes! I know that not everyone is called to adopt, but I do know that we are all called to care for the orphan. I get the blessing part of caring for the orphan, I get to love, know and teach my girls. The blessing far outweighs any hardship! 

Would you consider coming along side me and help me bring this last child home? She wants to come and she wants a family. All of her friends have been adopted and she has been left to wait.

I know that this is a difficult season to be asking for assistance, yet I ask not for me but for this treasure that wants a family of her own.

Right now, I have two avenues of giving, the donate button on this blog and a gofundme account. I'm sure my agency would accept money toward my adoption as well, Lifeline Children's Services. 

Thank you!

Friday, December 5, 2014

This is hard!

Adoption is a roller coaster of emotions, if you have walked this road you know exactly what I'm talking about, especially if you have had to step out in faith for the funds to bring your waiting treasure home.

Having adopted 4 girls in the last two and one-half years has left my saving pretty much depleted, even with the fundraising and adoption credit. The first credit was used to adopt again and the second credit was used to pay off some adoption debt and put braces on Mackinley's teeth. Who knew that God would ask me to adopt again, certainly not me!

I know that God equips those he calls, yet it is during this time of having to walk by faith that I begin to think this is how Peter must have felt as he was sinking deeper and deeper into the water. Looking at the amount due and the current funds on hand has me questioning, did I hear you, Lord? Yes, the waves of this storm have all but blocked my view of my Savior and his mighty ability to save and provide!

Just as Peter was saved from certain death when he called upon the Lord, I too will do the same! I am nothing, and I cannot do this without his help, provision and guidance. I commit myself once again to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ and I resolve to trust him to make a way!

This I know, my God loves orphans and he loves Addison and he wants her here to call his own. I pray that one day she will come to know him as her Lord and Savior just as her waiting sisters did after their arrival home.

The girls know that I'm not married and we were talking about why I work two jobs. I explained that if I had a husband then I would work one job or perhaps be a stay at home mama, but for now that was not God's plan for me. Eden said, when God closes a door her opens a window. He closed the door for a husband but he opened a window for us. How profound! I told her that was exactly right!

I need approximately $1500 more dollars to make this agency payment and that amount just seems impossible to me but not to my God. Would you join me in praying this amount in so that I can move forward with this adoption?

To those that have given, thank you. I pray that God will richly bless you in return. While I don't always understand how God works, this I know, his ways are higher than mine!

Praying, Expecting, Believing!

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Adoption from hard places

Lately, my girls have connected with many of their China friends that have been adopted throughout the US. While this has been good in many ways, it brings about comparisons that I detest!

Most of their friends went right into public school on or near the grade they had completed in China, thus making them much further along than my girls. I keep telling them it is about the education they are getting and their ability to read and comprehend than a certain grade level.

It is especially hard for my girl that came from the hardest of places. She compares herself with her friends and sisters and knows that she is behind them. I keep reminding her about how much more she knows now than when she first came home and that is what counts.

While all four girls had similar beginnings that is where their stories change. Can you imagine growing up where there was little to no heat in the winter, one serving of food (That is if you ate it fast enough so the nanny didn't take yours away to give to her favored child)? Being so hungry that you looked in the trash for more? Being physically abused and being sent to the hospital with a bleeding head injury? Never being taught manners, social graces, and never having toys, clothing or anything for that matter to call your own. Sadly, that is the beginning for one of my girls. 

A visit to the orphanage is eye opening and allows you an opportunity to glimpse into the daily life of your child. A most in my book. While I do not appreciate the nanny that was so hard on my child, I know this orphanage did the best they knew to do with the limited funds they had to run their facility and the social stigma's that are so real in this land.

My girl cannot be compared or expected to be like the others as she has had to learn everything, it is just like getting a new born baby in a preteen body. Guiding, teaching, loving her through each developmental phase of growth. The leaps and bounds this child has made is remarkable, yet she continues to compare herself. What makes this hard is that she knows she is different from those with easier beginnings, not that you can call being abandoned an easy beginning.

I guess my point is this, if you have adopted more than two or are adopting two you cannot expect them to be in the same place despite their similar beginnings. Where they lived and how they were treated plays a significant roll in where that child is today. In fact, you cannot expect two children in the same orphanage to be alike as again the role of the adults in the place and their interest or lack of interest in your child will determine a lot about how your child relates and attaches.

A hard beginning does not mean that your child will not attach. This girl was ready for a family and love and has bonded quicker and better than some of her sisters.

Praying that God will let her be at peace with where she is and that she will know just how special she is to me and those that meet her!

Adoption news, I have a Vicky's ThirtyOne Adoption Fundraiser going on on FB, a way to Christmas shop and help brings Addison home. Also if you are looking for something for yourself, family, or teacher, check out Organicaly Yours Body Products, for each $20 you spend she will donate $5 to my adoption fund, you must mention my name with your order for me to get the donation. Thanks!

I'm hoping to hear from the agency today to get the first home study visit going. That's all my news for now!

Until next time . . .

Saturday, November 29, 2014

Thankful! Photo overload!

The big kids had plans, one was working and the other was spending the day with her in-laws, where she and her children are dearly loved!

The girls and I headed to Dothan to enjoy Thanksgiving Dinner with the family.

Emma Butler
Shery's daughter

Phyllis Salt
Don's Mom from Miami

Jennifer Garrett
Robin's daughter

Haleigh, Ryan and Jameson Lund
Diana's children

Bobie with her first grandson, Asher
and Asher's parents!
Robin's first grandson

Three of my four treasures!

Robin's husband, Kim and their daughter Amy

Jameson Lund, Diana's son

Jim Lund and his daughter, Ryan
Sister Diana's oldest daughter
Shery with her first grandchild, Kaden and Mom

Ethan and his son, Kaden
Aaron and his son, Asher
Matthew and his son, Abrahem

Aaron, Cortney and Asher
The Kendall Family
Shery Butler, Vicky Simpson, Robin Meeker, Dad, Mom,
and in the back Bobie Salt and Diana Waller

Beth, Ethan and this son Kaden
Grandma Salt (Don's Mom)
The Salt Family
Asher, Cortney, Aaron
Bobie and Don
Justin and his friend Kaylyn


Kendall, Jennifer and baby boy Garret to be,
Abrahem and Matthew Garrett

Four generations together celebrating our thankfulness to God for his many blessings! A treasured time for one and all!

Friday morning, now a three year tradition, we met with the most precious family! Kendall's best friend from Huainan was adopted by Amanda and her husband Brandon! The girls love their time together and Amanda's mom, Cynthia, always has a special bead craft for the girls to do! She and her husband treated us to lunch after the girl's craft!         

Huainan sisters!
FuBing and Huai XiaSong
Phoebe and Kendall

Our evening ended with the play, A Christmas Carol!

Until next time . . .