Thursday, February 26, 2015

Name Game!

As you know, I have referred to our new daughter as "Kristen". This was her file name and it is an easy way to identify our waiting girl.

I cannot share her Chinese name until after I receive my LOA (Letter of Acceptance). I have used all the girls Chinese name as a 2nd middle name to honor them and their identity.

Addison was the name we had selected for the beautiful treasure that remains in China. I could not and would not use the name Addison for our new treasure as it will always belong to the daughter I was denied.

Moving forward meant finding a new name that I liked just as well as Addison. 

Here are the two choices: #1 Peyton Olivia 
                                       #2 Avery Kathleen

So, what do you think? Which name do you like best? Looking at this snap shot which name do you think fits her best?

Let me know what you think!

Monday, February 23, 2015

It's happening!

God in his gracious love for me and our sweet waiting daughter is providing in ways that makes me stand back and say, Wow! 

I have loved sharing how He/GOD has provided! Do you want to know what He has done? Sure you do! 

An anonymous donator gave to my adoption account at Lifeline! This came at a time when I was ready to give up, but God knew exactly what He was doing and provided some much needed funds that confirmed to me that I was on his chosen path!

I have been struggling with a tee shirt design, thanks Kim F. for offering your design! I had no clue of where to turn to get the shirts printed when my sweet niece showed up at our Saturday morning coffee club.

I asked for her help as she has a great design ability. I didn't realize that she was a "graphic artist" and works for a company that can print my tees! Stay tuned for more on our adoption tee shirt sale! Again, God's timing is perfect!

Right now, we in the process of doing a mini iPad fundraiser. Thus far I've raised almost enough to cover 1/2 of the device, so as you can tell I need your help getting the word out on this. To be successful, I will need to cover 100% of the device with the left over funds going straight to the adoption funding needs.
Four entries for a $20.00 donation 
One extra entry for FB share after initial donation.
Drawing will be via random number selection on March 30th 2015 at 8 pm.

You may donate via the Paypal donate button, the GoFundMe button, or sending your donation directly to me!

I am so excited to be adding "Kristen" to the family! I can't wait to meet her! I have heard so many things about her from those that met her at the hosting camp! The good news, a Lifeline team is going to visit her orphanage in March. The girls are already working on letters they want to send, I will let them pick out a small gift and we will also send a family photo album! Again, God's timing is perfect!

Excitingly waiting on God's next surprise and provision as we trust Him to help us bring this precious child home!

Saturday, February 21, 2015

What a ride!

I was finished adopting! Four beautiful treasures were enough, especially considering I already had two wonderful bio-children! My quiver was full!

God opened my heart for a very special little girl from Zhongshan, a friend of Journey's. She was to be my Addison! I had already started making her doctor's appointments! Several of Addison's Zhongshan sisters gave of their own savings to help me bring their friend home. One Zhongshan mama advocated among her family members, even when she didn't ask for their assistance for her own adoptions.

The first agency payment was made with these funds and the two of the four home study visits were complete. Everything was moving smoothly until I received "the call"! It seemed China was unwilling to process Addison's file because she had a known bio-father that visited Addison from time to time.

This is where things got really tough. I wanted to believe that China would change their mind, Addison still wanted to come and we wanted her. I asked again and again and was finally told that it was their law and nothing could be done. I went to work one morning in tears, the grief was unbearable!

I even requested to adopt two girls just by chance China did change their mind about Addison. As most of you know that request was denied. Did I continue with the home study in hopes that China would change their mind or was I to move forward with another special little girl that had captured my heart?

What about the people that gave for Addison's adoption? I cannot refund the money that was already used for the first agency payment that was made in good faith for Addison. At no time did I attempt to mislead about my intentions to adopt Addison. This was not a switch and bait deal. I can honestly say, I never in a million years thought there would be a problem with Addison's adoption.

The moment I found out that China would not get Addison file ready I posted it on the social media website and the girls told Addison via QQ that China had said no! We told her that we loved her and that if China changed their mind we would do all that we could to bring her home. We continued to tell Addison that China said no, due to the fact that she had a bio-father even when she was telling us to hurry and come and get her. It breaks my heart that she will not be allowed to become my daughter. She will always hold a place in my heart.

Again, it was not my intent to defraud anyone regarding your donation for Addison. Please accept my apology for any hurt or pain that I may have unintentionally caused you, your children and your family members.

Until next time . . .

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

An apology

I wanted to apologize for being so upset with my agency regarding their polices and their refusal to allow me to bring home two girls. I was wrong and wanted to publicly say so! 

I almost threw in the towel on this adoption, only a few of you know how close I actually came to this very action, but God, He has shown up big on behalf of this wonderful child that waits for her family.

There are many that feel that I am making a terrible mistake in adopting again but I know without a shadow of doubt that I am exactly where God wants me to be!

When you look at the natural I do not fit the mold for adoption! I'm old, work two jobs and have my plate pretty full; yet God keeps opening my heart for these aging out girls and keeps calling me to offer them a home to call their own. Go figure!

I truly feel that the adoption of older girls is my mission and purpose in life. I have reaped far more than I have given. These girls are absolutely treasures and are worth far more than anything I have given or sacrificed! Those of you that have walked this path will understand what I'm referring to! 

Please don't forget about the iPad mini fundraiser

Four entries for a $20.00 donation 
One extra entry for FB share after initial donation.
Drawing will be via random number selection on March 30th 2015 at 8 pm.

Until next time . . .

Sunday, February 15, 2015

First Fund Raiser!

It's an iPad Mini Fund Raiser to help bring "Kristen" home! 

Four entries for a $20.00 donation 
One extra entry for FB share after initial donation.
Drawing will be via random number selection on March 30th 2015 at 8 pm.

Donations can be made via paypal donate button or go fund me button.

I have gotten so bad about not taking photos! This morning after work I went by and bought a dozen "cheap" roses from WD! I gave each guest at coffee club one long stemmed rose!

The girls had a big day, they each received a rose, a box of candy and a personal letter from me. Nena and Papa gave them a card and candy. Our wonderful neighbor and friend, Margaret along with her daughter, Gayla gave the girls a beautiful gift bag that included a watch, lotion and hand sanitizer from BB&B. One of the girls said this was her best Valentine's Day. They couldn't wait to take photos to share on their "blog," aka QQ!

My third home study visit is next week. This should be interesting, I asked to meet at Starbucks. I felt it best not to meet in front of the girls for this visit and I thought a public venue might keep me venting my feeling regarding certain opinions and polices!

My sister and brother-in-law are home! He underwent a stem-cell transplant less than 30 days ago and God has blessed him with the best possible journey with few side-effects and excellent responses as his blood counts return to normal! While Don cannot return to normal activities at this point he is able to be further away from the transplant center. I thank God for this!

Please be in prayer for Addison. She told the girls that she still wants to come to the US and be with our family and we would love that too. Unless God moves lots of mountains, it is not going to happen. This just breaks my heart for her.

The girls and I are looking forward to celebrating the Chinese New Year. I have their "red envelopes" ready and we are going to visit our favorite Chinese restaurant! We will hang our red lanterns next week as well! Next year, Lord willing, we will have at least one more girl to celebrate this wonderful holiday!

Until next time . . . 

Saturday, February 7, 2015

A blessed birthday

This is the first time that I can recall being awake at 12:00 am and 11:59 pm on my birthday! The girls have been so excited about my birthday and have asked for weeks what I wanted. Each time I gave them the same answer, "play nice, love each other, and make me a card!" 

Thursday night at around 11:30 pm the three girls not sleeping in my room joined their sister and me. Each took their spot, one at the foot of my bed and two on the love seat! At exactly 12:00 am they each got up, hugged me and told me "Happy Birthday"! What a wonderful way to start a birthday celebration! One of the girls elected to sleep on the love seat while the other two headed to their room to sleep.

The next morning as I entered the kitchen I found the message board nicely decorated with birthday wishes from the girls and just as I was about to leave for work, I noticed a card in my purse. Yes, tucked in my purse was a beautiful card and handwritten note! Needless to say, I left for work with my heart full!

As I entered the locker room at work I was greeted by all my six o'clock coworkers with a "Happy Birthday! In front of my locker was a card and doughnuts! One of my sweet coworkers stopped and picked up doughnuts for us! It was so nice and totally unexpected!

I was able to leave work early, once home, I was greeted with lots of hugs and the beautiful cards designed by each girl. When I dropped the girls off at my parent's home we celebrated with birthday cake! All of this plus a Starbucks gift card from Matthew and Gavin! Jordan called and it was so nice talk with her, added to all this were the FB wishes and greetings completing one very special day!

Just as I was taking a patient from the OR to PACU I noticed that my birthday was now over! It was such a special day! I am truly one very blessed mama, sister, daughter, coworker and friend!

This is Kristin at the summer hosting camp with another older girl, Kimmie! I believe Kristin is the oldest. I am now FB friends with Kimmie's family so the girls will be able to stay in touch once home.

Kristin ages out in December! She is from Kunming, China. It seems I will finally travel to Guangzhou when the temperatures are milder! I do have a request, please pray I can be home before Christmas. I do not want to miss Christmas with my family at home. Right now, I am hoping to take one of the girls with me to make things more comfortable for Kristin when we travel.

Kristin is her Lifeline name, it will not be her English name. I gave the girls two choices and I feel almost certain that we will go with the one the girls liked best. I loved the name Addison but I already used that name for the treasure without a file! She will forever be in my heart!

I can now send her a care package but the contact person is closed for the Chinese Holiday so I will have time to plan.

Until next time . . .

Friday, February 6, 2015


Yesterday, February 5, 2015, I received my PA (Pre-approval to Adopt) a precious little girl from China. I can now share her photo.

Many of you know her well from the Lifeline summer hosting program. A couple of you guessed that she was the one I was adopting. Now, for the rest of you, this is our girl!

Yes, this is the girl known to many of you as Kristin! Just look at her beautiful smile. 

PA means that I need to get a few things finished up for the completion of the home study. I can now send Kristin a package and photos.

Please be in prayer that the necessary funds will come in to complete this adoption. The girls and I as we walk together on this new journey.

Until next time . . .

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

I need . . .

I need more Jesus! I was about to do a post about my anger and frustration with a certain unnamed agency but ever so gently the Holy Spirit did his job and urged me to "let it go"!

While I'm trying to "let it go," I will share that I have been denied for the second child. 

I am at the point of wanting to walk away from it all! Just being real!

Big decisions to make, I need your prayers!

Sunday, February 1, 2015

One more hint while waiting for PA

Yesterday was my mom and dad's 62nd anniversary! To celebrate, I picked up breakfast on my way home from work along with a beautiful bouquet of flowers. In the afternoon they attended a coral event at the local opera house. Today they plan to catch dinner and a movie!

I realize that I am beyond blessed to have both my parents at this stage of my life! I love them so much!

It seems I read that it could take 2 to 4 weeks for PA. I was hoping that it would come before the Chinese New Year celebration but at this point, I'm not sure. 
All in God's timing!

I can hardly believe that we are embarking on this journey again. I honestly thought I was finished and here I am deeply desiring not one but two girls. The second girl would be the perfect fit for our family and I truly pray that God will open the door for her to join us.

I'm running out of hints for the beautiful girl that I hope to receive PA on.

  • Lifeline Waiting Children's list
  • Girl
  • Age 12-13
  • Hair - Dark brown/black
  • Eyes - Brown
  • Special Need - yes
  • Foster family - yes
Since I'm running out of vague hints, I guess you will just have to wait until PA! 

Bonding is coming along, especially for one of my girls. It is as if we have turned a corner and she had been more open with the affection and love. 

Now, the most exciting news, Mackinley prayed and ask Jesus into her heart. She is a diligent Bible student. What a sweet blessing to know that she has taken this important step in her faith walk.

Until next time . . .

Friday, January 30, 2015

More adoption hints!

I was told that my hint yesterday wasn't a good one! Okay, how do you like this: 

  • Lifeline Waiting Children's list
  • Girl
  • Age 12-13
  • Hair - Dark brown/black
  • Eyes - Brown
  • Special Need - yes
Does that help? The good news, I believe my LOI will be submitted today! That means the CCCWA should get it Monday. I'm not sure how long after that before I hear from them.

Pray request other than for the finances. My heart has fallen for another child that doesn't have a file at this time. She would be the perfect caboose to our family, the problem, my agency doesn't feel that I am able to care for six children with my current work schedule. I understand their position, yet they don't understand my heart, God's calling and the wonderful girls here at home. I would not ask for this chid if I did not feel God's leading for her or the fact that I know that no one would suffer due to the additional children in the family. Would you join me in believing that God would let them see His plan for my family. Charts, graphs, and opinions of what a perfect situation looks like is not always the right way, we are definitely one of those think outside of the box families. We are guided and directed by God's plan for us and his leading!

More to come as I hear from my agency, the LOI response from the CCCWA and all that God has in store for us.

Trusting God . . .

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Next hint

My two days of smart training are over! It was a nice change from my regular routine, I loved the educational environment. I was part of a great group of ladies in the simulation lab where we practiced our new communications skills. 

Today, I received a copy of my Alabama background check and guess what? I have no criminal history! One more piece of the puzzle required for preparing my dossier! 

Tomorrow, I'm heading to the doctor's office to get my blood work drawn for my physical. She wanted fasting so I'm leaving work long enough to run over for them to draw what they need.

Inch by inch things are moving forward. I need to call my social worker to see what else I need to be working on! I put it all on hold when we received the devastating news that China was refusing to give Addison a file for adoption.

Tonight's dinner is stir-fry chicken and veggies with a side salad, fresh fruit will be their dessert. The girls are looking forward to this! I might throw in some soup before hand just to help fill them up! I've had more than one person tell me that the girls eat far more than their teenage sons! One gallon of soup last for one meal and I'm lucky to get a bowl! I'm not complaining, just amazed that they can pack so much away without gaining weight! If only I hand inherited those type of genes!

Yes, we are adopting, from Lifeline the next hint, the child we are adopting is a girl!

Until next time . . .

Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Just another Monday!

Yesterday, the girls and I headed to the grocery store! We had two carts filled to the top! We went prepared with our list from what we needed for the next two weeks menu's! Don't be shocked I do occasionally plan ahead! We may have added a few extra items that the girls wanted as we went along!

Publix opened a register for us and one of the clerks unloaded our carts while two more bagged all our items! I just love this store! My one regret is I forgot my camera as we hand plenty of photo opportunities! 

The girls seemed to notice for the first time that we were getting a lot of stares! I don't know if it was the middle aged woman with four beautiful daughters or the two huge carts filled with food or maybe it was both!

I'll have to go back next week for more milk and fruit as they don't seem to last very long around here! I'm sure most of you can relate!

The next two days I will be in "SMART" training at work! From what I've been told it is very boring, the good news another co-worker is attending this training and I will not have to sit alone!

For the record, I am still praying that Addison's file will open up. The girls have told her that China has said no due to the fact that she has a father. I don't understand why God would lead me to this child and then close the door. I guess it will be one of those untold mysteries that I will learn more about once in heaven.

Now that I am moving forward, I need to fundraise again. I will have another agency payment to make and those costly fingerprint for the 1-800a are just around the corner. If you have any good ideas that work please let me know. 

I also need to find out how to get any future donations in a tax deductible status. Any help and advice is most welcomed!

The LOI requirements seemed to be more than they were the first two times I adopted! Anyway, slowly chipping away at it!

A hint about the child we are looking to adopt - this child is on the Lifeline waiting list. 

Until next time . . .

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Walking the road to adoption

To know Jesus and to make him known! 

This has been a difficult season! Losing a child that you wanted so desperately is hard and I thank each of you that shared your experiences with me. To see you on the other side living victoriously speaks highly of the love and healing that comes from trusting God to lead and guide your life.

Honestly, adoption has been hard of me financially, while so many have helped and much of my expenses were covered by so many generous donations, there are still retirement account loans, and some credit cards holding balances. (Just being honest)!

I am not complaining as I have four wonderful treasures that know Jesus, have a forever family and are getting an education that might not have been possible in their homeland.

This is where the battle within begins, do I adopt again or do I say no.
  • There are those that say, your hands are full, enough is enough
  • What about the girls at home, there are so many things you can't afford to do (dance, music, etc.)
  • Vicky, you are not getting any younger and you work so hard
  • You have four wonderful girls why would you want to bring another child home?
I can't help but think about those things and the following . . .
  • What if I don't adopt and no one else wants this child?
  • What will happen to her? 
  • Will she ever know the love of God? 
  • Have a family? 
  • Get an education?
  • Be loved and treasured?
I have wrestled with all these things, praying for clarity, filling out LOI paperwork one minute and filled with doubt the next. Double minded not a good thing!

A double minded man is unstable in all his ways. James 1:8

Then tonight as I was reading an email from another adoptive mama, God spoke to my heart and clearly I am to submit my LOI for this treasure.

Her life is far more important than music, dance or art lessons, me being tired, she is a beloved daughter of the King and he desires for her to know him and be love by a family, not just any family, my family!

My job is to walk in obedience and to love and trust God to work out all the details! Yes, he moved my heart for this child and I cannot wait to tell her how God lead me to her.

More to come about this waiting treasure as I am able to share . . .

Sunday, January 11, 2015

The Unsent Letter!

Dear _ _ _ _ _,

I respect you as a board that works hard to approve adoptions for the many orphans needing homes/families in your homeland. I have come to love your land, and your children. I have four of your beautiful treasures!

It is an honor to raise these wonderful girls as my own. Each is gifted, talented and dearly loved! Thank you for trusting me to love these girls.

Recently the file of a young girl reached your office, the file of a child near aging out that has lived in an orphanage for the majority of her life. It is my understanding she has a father whom is unable to care for her.

I admire this father for wanting the best for his child by sending her to a place where she would be clothed, fed, and educated. Isn't that what we all want for our children, the best? There is no shame in not being able to provide for a child, it certainly takes a man of strong character to give up so much for his precious treasure.

I would love to provide a home and future for this waiting girl. All my treasures are being taught to honor their birth parents for the life that they gave them. This treasure would have had the added advantage of continuing her relationship with her father via QQ, where he could have received updates and photos of his beloved child. It is my understanding that he agreed freely to allow his child to be adopted.

What makes this treasure so unique and special to me is the fact that she is an orphanage sister to one of my girls. Two girls that share a bond beyond being birthed to the same parents. They are friends and like each other. Can you imagine anything better than to be placed with a family where you already know one of your siblings?

I certainly understand never removing a child from her home when the family is able to provide. I know all too well that things happen in life that make caring for a child a difficult challenge for some families despite their best efforts. There is no shame in this as it happens everywhere.

The precious treasure that I would love to call my own wants to be adopted and tells my daughter to hurry to come for her. She wants us as her family and we want her. My heart and home are ready for this wonderful child.

My heart and the hearts of my girls at home are deeply sadden that this child's file, due to reasons only known to you, will not be processed. We feel that we have lost a daughter, sister and friend.

I know that you will never see this letter yet if feels somewhat better to write expressing my grief for this huge loss. Each of your children are dear treasures! I love this child and desire her to be my own via the wonderful gift of adoption. Please reconsider allowing this child's file to be approved for adoption, she is loved and cherished by this waiting family.

Sincerely submitted,

A mom with a hurting heart

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Closed door!

It is with a heavy heart that I come to share about my unspoken prayer request. Thank you for praying and believing with us.

There was a problem with Addison's file in China. It seems she has a biological father. This fact makes her ineligible for adoption, especially when he has not given up his rights as a parent, even though she has lived in the orphanage for years.

What makes this hard is knowing that she wanted to come and told my girls each time they talked on QQ to hurry. Please keep Addison in your prayers as I am not sure what she will be told on the China side of things. They have shared with Addison that China told us, no. She will never know how much we love and care for her.

I'm not sure where we will go from here. Just taking it slow to see where God leads. We had already opened our hearts and made so many preparations for this little treasure that it hurts knowing she will not be ours. 

Again, please pray that God will protect Addison and make himself known to her in a land where knowing Christ as Lord and Savior often comes at a great cost. She will forever hold a piece of my heart.

I'm not sure why allowed this door to be closed but He is God and I will trust him.

Friday, January 2, 2015

My Family

 Gavin Michael, 11, and their dog, Rose! 

Matthew is the oldest and my only son. He, Gavin and Rose live with me, long story and Matthew's to tell. Matthew has recently changed jobs or I should say, added another job to his already busy schedule! He is a big help being here with the girls when I cannot be due to work. He and Kendall share a special bond, I think it is because she will clean his bathroom (for pay)! When the girls first came they were intimidated by Matthew's size! Kendall has figured out he's really just a big teddy bear!

Gavin is Matthew's only son, and my first grandchild! He is a chip off the ole block! He's growing up so fast! He and the girls have a love/hate relationship! He does love going and doing things with us! He recently went with the girls and me on our trip to the zoo.

My daughter, Jordan Elizabeth and her daughter, Kayte Elizabeth, 15 months!

Jordan is a great little mama, a good wife and loving daughter. I am blessed to call her mine! I admire the fact that Jordan has faced adversity with strength and character! If I could change one thing, I would live closer so that I could see her and her sweet babies more often! 

Kayte was named after a friend of Jordan's that died way to young! I thought it was sweet of Jordan and her husband, Jimmy to remember and honor their friend in such a touching manner. I had the pleasure to spend time with this little darling and her brother at Christmas and let me say, Kayte goes nonstop! I admire Jordan for keeping up with her! She must take after her daddy!

My son-in-law, Jimmy

Jimmy is a great husband and father! I admire the fact that Jimmy never meets a stranger and can talk to anyone, a wonderful quality! He is good for Jordan and they really make a great team/couple!

Jackson James, 4, Jordan and Jimmy's first born!

While here at Christmas, Jackson suddenly stopped playing and ran into my arms and gave me the sweetest kiss. A moment I will treasure forever! I love my time with this little fellow! Oh, he is all boy, he loves trains, cars, and dinosaurs! 

Journey Caroline, 13
Adopted May 2012 at age 11

Here she is modeling Addison's apron! Journey is strong in spirit and a leader! As you can see from this photo, she loves to have fun! She grabbed my new oven mitts to pose with! I'll never forget the night I received Journey's file and watching her dance in the director's office! My heart was captivated and the rest is history! Let me say, Journey knows how to delegate, I have to keep my eye on her or she would have all her sisters doing her chores!

Kendall Katherine, 15
Adopted May 2012 at ate 12

This photo speaks volumes about Kendall. She loves babies, puppies and is the hardest worker I know! Kendall came from a hard beginning but let me tell you this child is smart! She received gift cards for Christmas and she wanted me to buy the cards from her so that she could put the money in her savings account. I cannot begin to tell you how far she has come! To know Kendall is to love her!

Mackinley Alexandra, 15
Adopted September 2013 at age 13

Mackinley and my mom share the same birthday. Mackinley's birth mom left a note giving her a piece of her past, what a wonderful treasure for my girl. Mackinley is the quietest and most reserved in the group. She has a fun loving side that she lets peek out once in a while! I can see Mackinley as an educator at some point in the future. Mackinley grieved the hardest of all the girls her first year here.

Eden Victoria, 15
Adopted September 2013, 
5 days before her 14th birthday

I remember the exact moment I fell in love with Eden. Her photo was right under Mackinley's on Annie's Wonderful Waiting Kids! I was showing my sister Eden's photo and said something to her and my heart quickened and I teared up, I knew then that I could not rest until she was mine.

Eden is very self-conscious about her cleft and I hate that! She is beautiful on the outside as well as the in! I pray that as time goes by she will accept that fact that beauty goes far beyond the surface level and when you calculate her inner shine she is beyond gorgeous! Oh, Eden loves to talk and I love that about her.

Eden and Mackinley have been mine since Sept, 2013 about 15 months. They both came from foster families and they were dearly loved by their foster families. This transition has been a progress. Lots of tears for one and not quite as many for the other. I comforted when allowed but sometimes I just had to let them cry! Their personalities played a huge part in how they have transitioned!

Journey and Kendall have been home since May, 2012. Kendall loves being in the US, loves me and tells me all the time that she is so happy having a mother. Journey is more reserved and has written her feeling in a journal a couple of times that allows me to glimpse into her heart. Kendall was from a very poor orphanage while Journey was from one that was very well funded!

The girls' beginnings have made a difference in how they have bonded to me and to their sisters. I will say this, from my experience the girls did better coming home with a sibling. They never knew the isolation of not being able to communicate with at least someone in the house. They have all said it was easier having someone to come home with.

I know my experience seems to be the exception rather than the norm! I can only say, thank you Lord! I am beyond grateful for the opportunity to love and care for these girls that had little hope of a future as orphans. 

I am not trying to paint an unrealistic picture of older child adoption but I wanted to share that not every older child adoption is off the charts with real life hard issues! Now, not every day is easy and I can't tell you the times I've gone to my room and cried and prayed for my girls.

You have to go into each adoption expecting the very worse and praying for the best. Your child's history makes a huge difference in what you will face. Study that file, ask questions, trust what your China contacts tell you about the child. Most of all trust God to lead you to the right child for your family and he will give you the strength to take each day, hour, and minute as it comes.

Still trusting and believing God for mountains to be removed on behalf of my girls! Nothing is impossible for Him!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Happy New Year!


This morning on FB I was reminded of this verse and I can't explain how this simple truth, that I've known for years, spoke to my heart, soul, and mind!

God's character does not change! I am renewed in my spirit to study once again HIS character and to really get to know HIM on a more intimate level! 

The new year begins with many challenges and opportunities for God's character to be honored, relied on, and praised. 

My heart weeps when I think of the road block that has surfaced in Addison's adoption. I have not lost hope but clearly this is a situation/door that only God can open. 

I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted. Job 42:2

My sweet friend shared this verse with me today and oh my, is it ever a promise to stand on in this situation!

Yes, God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow and no plan of his can be thwarted!

What a blessed assurance!  Yes, I am expecting something so big from God . . .

Wednesday, December 31, 2014


Have you ever been on the path of life and as your rounded the curve without warning you found yourself at the base of a mountain too high to climb and too wide to go around? The circumstances just seem impossible, yet you know this is the path that God led you down. 

This is where I am finding myself on this particular adoption journey. While I am not at liberty to share the details at this time I can definitely share that there is a mountain! 

The Good NEWS is that GOD is in control and he knew this mountain would be here long before he placed this particular adoption on my heart. God's ways are higher than mine, no matter the outcome I will love and trust him. Do not take that statement as one of defeat, no it is my deceleration that God is God and I will trust him no matter what happens.

Our God is in the mountain moving business and nothing and I mean nothing is impossible for him. Please join me in trusting and believing that God will make a way! 

My sweet Addison wants a family and we want to be her family, this child matters not only to me but to our heavenly father!

I cannot nor will I answer any questions at this time other than to say all will be revealed when I am able to share.

Trusting, believing that nothing is impossible for my God, yes I am expecting something so big from God!

Monday, December 29, 2014

Adoption Journey

Those of you that have traveled the road to adoption know first hand about the ups and downs experienced on the path that leads to adding one more treasure to your home.

We are making progress but I marked on my finger print form that I had been convicted of a crime and then didn't fill out the information. Well, that came back and I have to resend it today. I called them on Wednesday of last week and spoke to someone that I didn't have a lot of confidence in and then tried again on Friday and guess what? They were closed! Oh, and for the record, I misread the question and I have never been convicted of a crime, not even a speeding ticket (not that I haven't deserved one from time to time)!

Yesterday, my wonderful China coordinator from Lifeline called me and again, she was busy working on her vacation! Her heart is amazing and I know that she truly loves her China families and the kiddos she works tirelessly to find homes for. While I am not at liberty to share about this conversation at this time, I ask that you would bathe this situation in prayer.

God is bigger than any mountain, and he loves orphans and he loves me. While I pray and rest in Him, for answers I know that HIS WAYS are higher than mine. This brings me a peace as I wait for HIM to show up and no matter the outcome, I will honor him!

Walking the road to adoption is a journey filled with many ups and downs yet I am not alone, my Father goes before me and he is there each and every step of the way. I trust him in the midst of the storms, I know that he clams the storm and he makes a way when there seems to be no way. I speak life to this situation, I know God is in control. He can open doors that no man can shut and close doors no man can open. Yes, my God is that big and I trust him.

I will share the details once all is known! In the interim will you join me in trusting and believing that God has this and that he will be honored and glorified no matter the outcome!

I trust you, Jesus!

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Thanking God for you and your gifts of love!

I have so many things to share about how God is blessing us! Each and every gift is appreciated and welcomed! Thank you for coming along side us to help bring our sweet Addison home!

I would like to introduce you to Ellie and Allie!

These sweet treasures are orphanage sisters to Journey and our waiting Addison! I met these sweet girls when I adopted Journey!

Ellie and Allie told their mother that they wanted to help me bring Addison home. They took money out of their savings and sent $300.00! One of the girls had been saving for over a year to buy herself an iPod! Talk about sacrifice! These girls know what it is like to live without a family and they have given their all to help their orphanage sister find her family!

Next, I would like to tell you about Sharon, she blessed Addison with clothes! Lots and lots of beautiful clothes! Can you imagine that God loves Addison enough that he has already provided clothes for her to wear!


This top and leggings were my favorite! I can just see Addison wearing this as she returns to visit her friends at the orphanage.

Eden is holding up the dress that all the girl's loved at first site! I think it was the sparkly belt that got their attention!

I'm sure it comes as no surprise to see Kendall holding up this Hello Kitty shirt!

Mackinley chose this beautiful little skater dress to hold up for a photo!

Journey had the camera! The girls loved seeing all these clothes. I asked if they wanted to try on their favorite dress and they all at once said,"no"! These were Addison's and they wanted her to be first to try them on!  Mackinley wanted to go ahead and put them in the suitcase!

Allie and Ellie were not the only children to give, Katelyn and Kylee also donated some of their own money, along with their mother. Kylee is an orphanage sister to Journey, Allie, and Ellie! Kylee was adopted just a few months before Journey and Allie. It touches my heart to see these young ladies give so much of themselves.

Sandy's friends and family have also donated after she shared our adoption story. A huge thanks to her and those that gave so generously. Obviously, I cannot feature each and every gift, although each person and their sacrificial gift plays an important part of helping to bring Addison home.

Kristin donated her earnings from my Thirty-one party and many of you purchased your Christmas gifts via this event to help bring Addison home. Thank you, Kristin and thank you to those that supported this event.

I have a special blog follower from Australia that has donated each time I have adopted. Not one time but multiple times. I thank you and I pray that God blesses you too!

Just when I'm about ready to give up God steps in via you and blesses us and encourages me to keep my eyes of the prize of his calling! 

Feeling thankful and blessed! Thank you!

Monday, December 15, 2014

Progress and it is beginning to look like Christmas!

To those that have given to help bring Addison home, thank you! I am humbled by your generosity and love. 

Thursday, Matthew and I went to get our fingerprints at the local sheriff's department. The officer/clerk helping us was friendly, kind and hated having her photo taken as much as me, yet she consented! I wanted this remembrance to share with Addison. 

While there we had to wait in the hall between my prints and Matthew's for them to print a young man in handcuffs! He was being escorted by two guards so we gladly stepped out for them to process him!

If you have followed me through the years you know I have a knack for tripping and falling! Yep, it happened again as we stepped out from the Sheriff's Office. I'm not sure what happened other than my foot seem to get stuck and down I went. Matthew helped me up and one of the officers inside came out to see if I was okay. If you are the agency reading this, please disregard this, I really am fit as a parent despite my tendency to be not so graceful! I have a small abrasion on my elbow and it is rather bruised! 

The good news, the finger prints cards will be delivered this morning! Also being delivered today is a huge stack of paperwork for the agency! Wednesday, we will be visited again by my social worker for our 2nd home study visit! Slowly but surely things are happening!

Guess what? This week a package is being delivered to our home with clothes for Addison! A sweet blog follower wanted to bless our girl and us and I beyond excited to see what she selected! I will certainly be sharing on a future blog post so stay tuned! Isn't God good?

We have a "Charlie Brown" tree this year. Our old tree  died last year and I wanted something small and cheap for this small space in the living room! We scaled back with the decorating this year too! It is kind of nice and the girls are happy. 

The wood block Nativity on the mantle was made by my parents years ago. It holds a special place in my heart and this year I featured it on the mantle. Yes, that is the elf sitting next to the baby Jesus. He stayed there many days as I kept forgetting to move him! When asked, I told the girls that he just wanted to love Jesus a little longer! Next year there will be one more stocking to hang! Yeah!

I think this will be our last week of school for this year. I haven't shared this with the girls. They will be surprised when I tell them! They have worked hard this first semester and I'm so proud of them!

Until next time . . . God is faithful!

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Why adopt again?

Today, I am thankful for heat! Night before last we were without and it was rather nippy in here! One of the advantages of living in the South, while cold it wasn't freezing! 

At an age when my peers are retiring or semi-retiring, I am adding to my family! The world would tell me, you are too old, you have done enough, let someone else do the adopting, you don't have the money (that one is true), and four is enough and to some four is too many! Why they ask?

Why? I'll tell you why! When God opens your eyes to the needs of the orphan you can never pretend that it doesn't exist. You see, I have gotten to know four wonderful girls that would not have had a chance in this world had they not be adopted.

Their education would have stopped, they would be forced out of their orphanages onto the streets if there were no positions for them or be condemned to live in an institution the rest of their lives. 

Can you imagine attempting to make your way in the world without training or an education in a place that considered you bad luck because you were an orphan? What about the predators that lurk about to take advantage of these innocent young girls?

Everyday girls all across China age out and it breaks my heart that they will never know the love of a family! The love of Jesus and what HE did for them. I believe that as I age, I am not to rest back and let someone else do the work, no God isn't through with me. His plan for my life is to open my home to these beautiful girls. That is why I adopt and feel clearly that God has called me to bring one more treasure home from China.

Adoption is expensive! Is it worth it, yes! I know that not everyone is called to adopt, but I do know that we are all called to care for the orphan. I get the blessing part of caring for the orphan, I get to love, know and teach my girls. The blessing far outweighs any hardship! 

Would you consider coming along side me and help me bring this last child home? She wants to come and she wants a family. All of her friends have been adopted and she has been left to wait.

I know that this is a difficult season to be asking for assistance, yet I ask not for me but for this treasure that wants a family of her own.

Right now, I have two avenues of giving, the donate button on this blog and a gofundme account. I'm sure my agency would accept money toward my adoption as well, Lifeline Children's Services. 

Thank you!