At the same time, I truly wanted to bring two older girls home, I believe and know from experience that the two are a huge comfort to one another during those early days in China and at home.
My agency said no to two, they did not believe that I could handle two more! Really? Oh well, enough of that!
During the heartbreaking process of China refusing to give the first girl a file, I was being drawn to another girl. I can remember the exact moment when my heart was quicken for her.
My precious girl has a diagnosis that concerned me and my initial thought was, "no way"! Yet, I kept coming back to look at her and her file! After the moment that I referred to above and talking with several people multiple times I knew we were to proceed.
This journey has been plagued with many lets say, "issues"! More hurdles than the past two adoptions combined! I feel that she must be a pretty special young lady if the enemy is doing all he can to hinder this process.
It has been months since she received our photo album and told that she has a family. What must she be thinking as the time continues to tick away without any word of how close or far away we are from coming after her! Has she given up hope? Does she think about what her new life will be like? Is she ready for the loss of her foster family, her homeland, and friends?
With all the Chinese holidays coming up, I know that my LOA will most likely be delayed! This is hard! I'm not worried about getting there in time as my agency will work like crazy to make it happen, as they did during my last adoption.
My heart is sad for Avery as she waits. I am sadden that I do not have the funds to take the girls with me on this trip as they would all love to return to their homeland for a visit, and their presence would give Avery someone to communicate with during those first early awkward days.
Waiting is never easy, yet it is part of the progress! I am thankful that God knows the exact moment when we will receive LOA and travel approval! I can take comfort in knowing and relying on God during this waiting period.
Praying for Avery's precious heart, may she continue to wait in peace and hope for what will be!
Until next time . . . waiting!